Hi everyone. After several attempts, I'm finally making my first post. As has been said, simply beginning can be the hardest part. I've wanted to blog again for awhile, but the pressure of making amazing posts or living up to my own expectations was too much for me. Though here, in whatever frequency or quality of writing, I hope to share some of my deep thoughts, regular thoughts, and other memories.
I've decided to call my blog "Into The Light" because I get a lot of thoughts jumbled in my head, some of them becoming quite a burden if I don't release them outside myself. I need to get them out from under the shadows of my anxiety and the sometimes skewed critique of my pessimist mind, and look at them on the page for what they really are. I bring my own mind more and more into the light as I spew everything out and arrange the thoughts in a way that actually makes sense. Like journalling, it's therapeutic in a sense that it helps me process my thoughts and feelings. By then taking another step and sharing these things with others, I release the shame I may have about them. This act affirms me that I don't need to keep them hidden, because although my life and mind can be messy, i'm just another human.... and let's face it, we're all messy. But I'm also unique, and my stories deserve to be heard.
I may not have many answers, but I hope to bring some significant thoughts and issues to light through this, and be encouraging if only in the simple way of saying, "Hey, don't be so hard on yourself. I'm messy too. I think the whole world is messy. Yet, somehow, not so bad."
But for the sake of keeping my anxiety at bay, I'm not going to set any expectations on this blog. It will be what it will be.
Aaaaand.... first post.
